I got crushed by crush

That afternoon, past lunch, I hurried to the main road, looking for a pedicab to fetch me to school. I was excited for my exam. Excited because I knew that I was not the only one who would get an egg score [and I was right].

While waiting for a pedicab, I saw her. I saw my crush with someone else, riding in the backseat of a motorcycle [does a motorcycle have a back seat? is this the right term, no?]. Pertaining to what I saw, they were not that sweet. That means they are still in the getting-to-know-each-other stage.

But really, it hurts so bad. That's her in the picture. :P

The Elephant Swings

And that when we hide in silence, and suppress our feelings, and refuse to say what we want to say, is not defeat. It is actually the beginning of maturity, the time when one understands the situation properly and weighs everything for the benefit of your own, or for you both.

WOOF The FUN...

While waiting for the film to show, I had decided to proceed to WOOF, it is where gaming machines (I am not sure with the term. You see, I have a shallow swimming pool of words) wait for your hand to roughly maneuver its joystick, it is the haven of adults with childish hearts.

On the other hand, my going there is apparently not to play. I have long forgotten the joyous moments that those machines could bring.  I am more into computer games. After all, ours is the computer era. However, Steve Jobs even said that we are now in the post-computer era. Enough of that nonsense.

Others went for shoot the ball. Some went for the hammer the head. A few tried their singing skills in the videoke rooms. But when I saw the angry birds (cheap stuff toys) inside that machine I knew that I need to have one.

Paulo Coelho said that when you want something and if it meant happiness for you and the people you love, the universe – the stars, the sun, the moon, the trees, the birds, the air, the flowers and even the little ants – they will all unify to help you. So when I tried my luck for the first time and failed, I knew that I need to try it once more. I failed for the second time though. But I had a feeling, a good hunch, that I would be able to get it so soon.

The third time I threw a coin in the slot, she was on my mind. And if I am going to get that angry bird, I am going to give it to her. My intention was good. And the universe did help me. I got the Angry Bird, the green pig oink oink actually.

Hot Seat, Ass Burned!

I did not join the "hot seat evaluation" (as what my co-editors call it) of our publication tonight. I have my reasons. And I did some errands for my aging mother, too. This evaluation is intended for all staffers, to assess them with their performance and attitude towards work.

I did not join the evaluation because I don't want to hurt their feelings by being too frank on how lousy most of them could get. Really, I need not to remind them over and over again on how lousy and irresponsible some of them could get.

If only the pub is a place for us to become friends then that would be really nice. But the office is not a playground, it is not intended for staffers who will just work if they feel like doing it.

How can I hate them and love them at the same time?

I will do my best, God please do the rest!

I have been crossing my fingers for a long time now. I have been murmuring repetitious prayers every now and then. I have been in fright nights every time I lay my back in bed. I have been constantly reminding myself that I can make it. I have been reminded a million times by my alter ego that if I just do the right things, I can graduate in more or less than two months.  I just need to hold my breath for two months. That's it and I can make it.

I just need to do the right things. I just need to read the right books. I just need to understand all theories and scientific complexities. Then after that, I can make it. 

Lord, please. Guide me and Bless me as you always does.

They call it kitten, I call it Puppy

i like you, i really do

i'll still like you, even if you don't want me to

i like you, i really really do

i want you to say that you like me too

but if you don't, i don't mind

your pretty, and kind, your just so hard to find

if i'm too forward, i'll rewind

i'll finish the race, even if i'm way behind

i like it when you smile

you make me pause for a while

i want to take a picture, stack it on my pile

if that's a crime, i'm guilty, we can skip the trial

i like you, i really do

i do like you, do you like me too?

i want to call you my boo

i don't think i can stop liking you

one hour goes by

there, i would lie

every minute i let out a sigh

waiting, for you to reply

am i going crazy?

or i'm just crazy about you?

you are my fair lady

am i a prince charming to you?

i like you, i really really do

i like you more than any kinds of brew

you can put my heart in a stew

it'll still beat, whenever its near you

time, makes me question

so much, it ends up as repetition

is it addiction or attraction?

so many complications, leads me to contemplation

it starts off as a crush

now its a must

it sticks like rusts

you are my royal flush

i like you, i really do

if you say i do, i'll say i do too

i cant stop thinking about you

because, i think i really do like you

i like you

i really do

i really like you

like really, i do

Am I Really An Addict?

So, it was like this. I was and still am studying when all of a sudden my aunt from Canada called via Skype. There was nothing special about that. She always does that everyday to check her sons and grandchildren and pamangkins (that is me and my fat sister). Then, I remember a deal that we talked about a month ago. The deal was she have to find me some chix there in Canada. I mean, oh la la la babe. 

She also told me that she has seen pretty girls in their church who are in my age bracket (18-21). And that these girls are daughters of devoted church members, pastors and the devout. Nevertheless, I still want to meet some babe from a foreign land. I was eager and excited about it. Half-filipina or pure pinay from a foreign land.

I inquired to her about that, I need an update. Then she told me this:

Tita: Haynako dong. Maulaw pud ta magpa-ila-ila nimo sa mga anak sa akong mga kaila diri. Unsaon manang gwapo unya mag-post-post ug adik adik sa Facebook. Wala jud kay klaro. Puro ra binuang ang pang-buhaton. Taronga sa to imong Facebook. (Ano ka ba dong. Nagdadalawang isip naman akong ipakilala ka sa mga kasamahan ko dito kasi puro mga lamang adik ang nasa Facebook mo. Puro lang mga katatawanan linalagay mo dun. Ayusin mo muna ang Facebook mo.)

Seriously? Can't I be admirable and stupid at the same time?  Wahahahahaha.

Home Alone (nth time)

My sister left me. Two of my older cousins left me, too. The kids here left me. That means I am alone this New Year, the same scenario that is happening for the last fourteen years. Everyone just disappear. Everyone just want to spend the holiday season somewhere else and not with their family. 

Had I learned earlier about their going I could have gone somewhere first, somewhere where? That is a very difficult question you see. I have a midterm exam on January 2 and I had the PDFs printed yesterday. I reviewed my notes, just a few pages actually. So, having a short vacation is not part of the plan.

I want to call her. THE HER. But I was hesitant so I just sent her a smiley, just a smiley. No words. No special message, just an emoticon. LOL. She didn't even reply. How could I be so damn obvious! Holiday delicious ham, spaghetti and coke were my dinner.

Happy New Year folks!

Marquez planned Pacquaio's loss

It was a strategy. It was planned. What people saw as an unbelievable lucky knock-out punch by Marquez was a counter-attack that was years in the making.

The rivalry between these two great fighters erupted eight years ago. While the Saranggani politician was too busy in his career that includes endorsing products, singing, acting and working in the legislative, his Mexican counter part, on his long training days, was carefully planning his sweetest revenge.

When Pacman fell on the floor, facing the canvass, people in the entire world who were watching became silent out of disbelief. After all, he was The Manny Pacquaio. He was never seen so helpless in his international fights, not until Marquez made him 'sleeping beauty' in the ring.

Did Pacman make a mistake? Was he too greedy? Was he too offensive? No, that is his natural fighting style. What we saw in his very recent fight with Juan Manuel Marquez was the Manny Pacquiao of two or three years ago. He was a natural offensive boxer, a formidable K.O. artist.

That is why he was dubbed as the most exciting boxer in the world. In every fight, there is no second that he stops moving to look for an opening. While these are Pacman's strongest assets - speed, power, offense and reflex, these also became his weakness. Marquez used these strengths to turn against him.

On the sixth round, Marquez waited for that one-two combination of Pacman as he always does in the previous rounds. And He succeeded. There is no luck in there. This is professional boxing. This is not a game of luck.

Just like in Basketball, every play is carefully thought of, every play is practiced so many times that players instinctively run to their assigned spots in the court to do what they are tasked to do.

For Manny Pacquiao, Sir I am a big fan of yours. Not because you are a Filipino (because I don't give a damn about nationalism). It is because you are a great fighter. No fighter in the world that could make me dream of being a boxer. I always love to hit people. Haha. I always wanted to box but because of my injured right hand, I had to shift to another sport Badminton.

Sir, you need to fight again. I encourage you to fight again and forget about your defeat. Next year, come back to the ring and destroy the face of Bradley. Go for a fifth match against Marquez, break his nose again Sir. I want you to use the same offensive fighting style but careful enough to watch over his counter punches.

Then after you do all these, PLEASE PLEASE. I BEG YOU. FUCK the face of MAYWEATHER. Destroy him and just put an end to his 'sissy' mouth.

Then, finally. After you retire, just please find JUSTIN BIEBER and HIT HIM for me, will you? He is a one stupid son of a bitch I want to barbecue him alive. Thank you.

Blog it on!

By Ryan E. Gantalao

When the pen and the paper came into existence, the diary was born ─ our old man’s compilation of daily experiences compiled into a leather-bound notebook. When the computer and the internet were invented, diarists and even normal people who love to write rejoiced, because they have found a more secure and an on-the-go modern-day diary that doesn't require much of an effort in keeping their thoughts in secret. Not to mention that they can enable it for public viewing and make the world as their audience.

So, what’s a blog and what’s blogging anyways? For those who are still not aware about this new innovation, a blog is a live journal or a personal online diary which allows the user to share their thoughts, ideals, daily experiences, photos, music, and even videos. While blogging is the act of adding contents on a blog, the same way as when a blogger, a person who owns a blog site and is active, comments on other else’s blogs.

Is there anything to write about? Of course there is. As a matter of fact, there’s a whole lot more to write than by just sharing your daily experiences, in which most of you find boring. You can write a review of your favorite book, song or the latest movie that you have watched. You can even write about your love story ─ you know what I mean, the time when you and your boyfriend/girlfriend met for the first time and how you two found your way into love ─ and let the world read your tale of romance.

Not just that. In blogging, you are able to express your stress factors and emotions, one way of improving a person’s physical and emotional state. According to a research conducted by James Baker & Susan Moore, which was published in the journal Cyber psychology& Behavior in 2008, “Higher levels of social integration suggest that bloggers feel greater belonging to a group of like-minded people with interests and ways of thinking similar to their own.”

Blogging is a nice way of releasing the inner emotions that you have, especially if you don’t have someone as an outlet for those emotions. It is a medium of expression of which most people of today use so that they can share their day to day life experiences. In other words, blogging is a modern diary in live journal protocol that enables other bloggers or internet goers to come across your blog and read your blog entries.

It provides an individual with positive interactions, and social support and friendship, thus, bringing like-minded people together. Blog authors can express subject matters that make life difficult. In this way, habitual social interaction thru blogging can reduce social isolation and emotional stress.

Getting yourself started

Within the past 10 years, there are a couple of blog hosting sites that have branded their own name in the blogging industry. These companies include blogger.com, wordpress.com, tumblr.com, livejournal.com and xanga.com. The good thing about these blog hosting sites is that they host your blog sites for free, and they also provide you with a free blogging platform which has its own blogger settings and tools that enables the user to maximize his/her blogging experience.

Here in the Philippines, the most common blogging platforms that are being used are wordpress.com and blogger.com. However, I suggest blogger.com because all of their tools are absolutely for free, that includes editing the design of your blog site and adding of cool widgets, unlike wordpress.com inwhich you are only limited to a few customization options unless you purchase a domain, which costs 4-5 dollars a month, adding up the hassle in installing WP platform that needs a bit of website administrator skills in managing the site.

All you need before signing up in blogger.com is a gmail account. Well, if you don’t have one then you need to register at gmail for free. After that, you go to www.blogger.com and fill in the information that they require in getting your blog started.

From there you can start exploring the world of blogging, and can try new trends and design for your blog. You can go to btempales.com or blogcrowd.com for free blog templates designs. Then after that, you are on the way in making your very first blog entry! You need to take not that you are the author of your blog and your entries should either be boring or interesting. Well, you decide since it’s your blog anyways.

In a way, you can also choose a theme for your blog. It can be humorous, scientific, sports, fashion, love, entertainment, personal or just a general blog, like mine where I usually post entries that are ‘nonsense’, so to speak. But you know, people will love your blog if you have the same interest with them. With this, the chance for you to develop your social activity online is big, and meeting different kinds of people from different parts of the globe is possible.

Why Should I blog?

There are many reasons why a person should blog. Apart from expressing your thoughts and opinions, blogging, throughout the last decade, has transformed into a medium of social media. In other words, blogging is a form of citizen journalism. That means you are not only limited in expressing your thoughts and opinions with regards to your day to day experiences but can also participate on province-wide or nationwide issues that affects a larger number of people.

The thing is, your blog is your own voice. When you feel that you are being oppressed or unheard or just plain sad, you can write about it directly in your blog and just feel happy about it upon doing the act. It is your own personal views on how you see the world around you. There is much in blogging than what your Facebook, Twitter, and Plurk accounts can do, that includes the unlimited number of characters you can use in every post.

There are no rules in blogging, thus, you can write whatever you want. You just need to make sure that you are writing under the proper ethics of being a blogger, especially when you are writing about delicate issues. Through blogging, you can make a difference to a larger number of people who are unaware of what’s really happening around them. You can become there source of new information and knowledge.

Another reason why people should blog is because there is money in blogging. You heard it right, there is money in blogging and this comes from writing reviews about a certain product that are being introduced online. You can check on it on Google. There are many companies out there which pays bloggers in writing product reviews, or what they call as pay-per-post.

There you go. I hope this article will encourage you to start your own blogging hobby. You need to bear in mind that there is always something to write about, and you don’t need to be a famous writer to be able to write. You can be a writer in your own rights. All you need to do is to find time in writing, and add your thoughts in your blog after a tiresome day.