Colegiate Level Tournament

At last, for almost 5 years of waiting, i am now a certified NORSU Tigers Badminton Varsity Player. Here I am waiting for the exact date to come for our team to compete in the biggest inter-collegiate tournament in the country. Comprising all major sports event, PHILIPPINE UNIVERSITY GAMES is the only gathering of all colleges and universities in the country today.

I will be playing in badminton doubles category where the other four members of our team will play in two singles match and the other two will exchange places to be my partner.

I am not a good player. I can rate myself as an average-above the beginner level badminton player compared to my teammate ,who will play in the single's event, is the negros oriental number 1.

But, I will do my best though I know we will going to lose at the first round.

We will be going to Iloilo this coming october 23,2009 at 3 A.M.

This will be alot of fun since we will travel from dumaguete to mabinay then to kabankalan, next to canlaon, lastly to Bacolod. It will not end there since our bus will barge into a sea-bus-carrier from bacolod to Iloilo and then travel again up to this 26 hectare piece of land known as the CENTRAL PHILIPPINE UNIVESITY.

GOOD LUCK NEGROS ORIENTAL STATE UNIVERSITY TIGERS VARSITY TEAMS!!!!

CLINCH A GOLD!!

IF YOU CAN'T THEN STEAL IT!!!

I just left the woman I have loved

I have loved you and you loved me back. . …..

I was so happy each time I am with you…..

Every time you look at me as I look at your eyes is like one of those enchanting fairytale scenes in the movies…..

Though you are far from me, I always think of you. There was no time that you we’re out of my thoughts. ….

I always wanted to hear your voice and see you as often as I can….

But time, resources and distance is too unfair……….

All those happy moments we shared together have changed…

We were so happy way back then but….now it is gone…

I do not want to remember it once more because it’s tearing my heart each time I realize that it was my fault………..

I broke your heart…. And I was the reason of your tears…

I am very sorry… I did not mean to break your heart… But I guess I meant it…

I have loved you….

Really… Believe me…

I left you because I am tired of missing you… I am tired of everything…

I am tired of thinking all about you... I don’t want to be sad every time I think that you are not with me…

Maybe…just maybe… I’ll meet someone closer to me… someone who can take care of me always… someone whom I can see as often as I can… Someone who can hug and touch me every time I’m sad… Someone who can sit beside me at the end of the day...

These are the things you cannot give me… And I can’t give you these things as well….

Someday at the right time we will meet again gAh…

I loved you

But let us face reality, There are times that love can't fill the missing part of a person who's only wish is to always hold the woman he loves. So I guess, I need to let you go by now. It's the only way that we will be free from any commitments we had. It's the only way that I will stop missing you.

You'll be free and you'll be happy with someone else. I want to see you happy with someone else. There are things that I can't give that hopefully others can do.

I am still thinking of you. Night and day.

But I will still be keeping in touch with you because i don't want you to be alone. I don't want you to cry but I did. I miss you. I'm sorry.

But I just want to let you know the three words I felt deep inside of my very soul. I loved you.

Everything I need is you

Every sunrise when the sun glimpses my skin and its rays heats my blood. It reminds me of your warmth embrace, the softness of your hands I love to hold.

Every morning when I wake up I still can’t believe on how God brought you to my life. My smiles has turn to laughs ,my worries has turn to quiets thoughts, my bitterness has turn to happiness.

Isn’t it amazing? That both of us were total strangers when we met yet my heart whispers your name and says “you were meant for me”. You are the answer to my prayers that were so hard to believe yet now you are here.

When I’m with you I just wish there could be no tomorrow waiting for the sun to shine, the clock won’t tick, the clouds would stay, the earth would stop, and the moon won’t outshade the sun.

Every time when were watching each other’s eyes .Its melting my heart to gladness that I just wished we would remain like this and I just want to stay with you in this place.

The birds and the seas will be the witness of our enchanting lovestory, wherein all lies are reality, wherein all impossible will be possible, wherein all wrongs from the eyes of other’s are greatness for both of us.

I can’t draw the image of my future without you;Thy heart of mine is ravage to death if you are gone.

From that very moment I laid my eyes on you, I knew what I felt is real. It was love at first sight.

At that very night when we met, I was so attracted to the spark of your Goddess beauty and the highlights of your simplicity and just when you talked you have touched my melancholic heart.

You stunned the darkness of the night, though stars envy your Aphrodite smile.But I never 

loved you because of those, for I have no reasons of loving you.

I’m just simply badly intimately irrevocably crazy in love with you.

In each and every breath I take I’m loving you better and stronger.

You were never out of my thoughts because you ruled the existence of my life.

When the sun rises at morning and sets at dawn “my mind thinks and my heart beats for you”.

Every time when the moon anchors the darkness of the night and the only crystal is the moonlight; it sweeps my loneliness in the cold evenings, and the scent of the freezing air of the sea, glaciers my flesh “I’m missing you my love”. I wished over and over that I’ll cherish those moments again when our bodies is so closed and we were embracing out of love.

Every time I open my eyes I thank “God” because I finally found you. It will be my life’s end if he’ll take you back, so please I’m begging you to stay with me. I need you more than anybody else; I need you here with me. I will always be the man you’ve dreamed of, I won’t change.

You’ll always be the princess of my fairytale and I’m your angel in shining armor.

You are the sunrise and sunset of my life.

You are the world to me.

If loving you until eternity is not enough then I shall wait for my next life to come and I will start loving you again

09-09-09

It was on 9th day of August 2009 when I went to Bais and visited my girlfriend. It has been so long since the last time I saw her. Maybe three weeks or longer.

I woke up 5am because we have agreed that I should be there at sunrise. I arrived there at 7am, I guess, and I was so hungry. I was shock when she asked me if I have eaten already. When I step out of the pedicab I saw her on the road holding a plastic bag with food in it. Atlast, "sabik na sabik", I go near her and supposed to hug her but there were others watching so I just kissed her on the cheek. She was so fresh since she just took a bath earlier. I love that smell. Her hair I love to wiggle. Her skin I love to touch. I was so happy that day. It was the first time we ate together in breakfast.

Wearing these simple female pedal, a loose shirt, with untied hair, she washed the dishes and I just stared at her. She look very attractive to me. She looked like a boyish female. I simply laugh at her because she don't care to whatever she wears as long as it fits her. I hug her at her back when she was still rinsing the dishes. I kissed her cheek again and she said " paghulat ra sa guwa kay masuko and landlady". So I waited for her at the terrace.

We just talked and laugh and make fun to each other. We were like barkada the way we treat each other.

In the afternoon we went to our lover' spot. It was the place where we became lovers in negros..HEHEHE. . Well what happen next is purely censored guys.

I miss her

I miss that clumsy funny girlfriend of mine. We rarely see each other because we are 40km apart. It's not that far but still I don't have enough money to go there always. I'm facing financial crisis right now(laugh) so we just see each other twice a month. What I really miss about her i s her unparalleled sweetness to me. 

The way she looks at me and smiles at me. Her charming appearance is just simply relaxing. She holds me like she don't want me to go home. Because I don't want her to lose her hands-off on me. I just want to assure that every second is not wasted when we are together.

We often eat in the "tocinohan" with all the street food vendors selling their mouth-watering dishes. Is that dishes? maybe.

Happy to be here!

It is really nice to be here in my newly joined organization. I guess I’m one of the smart-want to-be journalist this time. Being one of the new university writers, I am proud and happy to be included in their family. 

The office, I mean the TN office is just a small one. But it is great because we have this non-stop cooling air system with snacks in our very own refrigerator. Most of all we have enough computers to assist our write-ups with internet on it so that I can blog on the net. Cool!.

Aside from that, the people here and the older staffs are so nice to me. They treat as if I’m their friend. Thank you guys!

A combination of different personalities we have here. There are the noisy ones, the strict editors, the funny 3rd sex members, and also the newbies.

A sucesss

Just by last July 25, 2009 I joined this written exam for new writer applicants in our university. It was destiny that brought me there in the venue because it was not really included in my plans to join such an organization. I brought my luck with me and during the exam I found it easy to do the stuffs they want us to write.

It was great and I finish it right on time. The following weekend, I mean the next next weekend I took three interviews. And I was able to impress the interviewers I guess because they would say “very unique idea” and things like that.

Oh, yes I rank no#2 in the overall rankings of the writer applicants. Amazing. Great. I am blessed. It was my destiny. My passion has given me a chance to write again.

Fixing A Broken Heart

“Every time I hear this song playing on the radio, the bitter memories of the past would just flash back throughout my thoughts. The memories of my heart’s first cut resulted to a severe unseen pain. But I have no regrets, that event just led me to meet my one true love”

It happened last summer when the relationship we had with my girlfriend started to die away. It wasn’t me who fade out of love but it was her who has forgotten all the stupid promises she made.

I really loved her. Her Aphrodite smile I love to watch, her lips I desire to kiss, and her hands so soft to hold. Our happy moments together seem like a never ending. I thought it would never end. But it came to a point that I felt it will, when I started to sense there was something different going on.

When were together, I can no longer feel the essence of her intimate affection on me. Every time we sent messages to each other, I can no longer see the “I miss you” nor the “I love you” either the “Goodnight” messages she usually sent me.

It was a cold evening when she texted me: “I need space to grow, and time to know myself more”. It hurts, really it does. Is she nuts? She’s living here on earth for all of her life yet she still doesn’t know herself? Oh, come on. I knew she was just making excuses. It caused me to never eat for a day and half and I’ll never, unless she will going to text me. I waited for my phone to beep but she never did. She doesn’t care for me anymore. From that very moment I knew her feelings for me faded away.

I tried to believe it wasn’t real. I believed that it was just a test and I need to fight for it once more. Maybe we just need to talk and fix things out. I waited and watched her house every other day or two whether she’ll go out so I can talk to her. But I never had a chance, maybe she knew I was there waiting that’s why she won’t go out.

Her sister helped me, so I had a chance to talk to her. I tried to hold her hand but she refused. I asked her if there’s something wrong but she would just said ‘wala” and left me a fake smile. She’s acting so weird and I’m starting to loose my temper but still, I tried to understand her.

After two weeks, I just found out that she and her ex-lover were together again. It was the first time I felt so down and weak. I can’t think well nor eat. I was so good to her and I love her most, more than any other guy can do.

The pain took-off existence of my life. It’s like I’m loosing my breath every time I think of her and what she did to me. I need someone to talk to. I was like a crazy jerk begging for an instant friend. And so I had, I never thought this new friend will be my new happiness, and in the long run will likely turn to be my sweetheart.

I took up my phone and sent messages to anyone saved on my phonebook containing a message “please help me; I’m tear down into pieces”. Suddenly someone replied. It was from “toniet” as what it appears on my inbox. I remembered that her number was given by my close friend. I opened the message and it burst my tears out as it said “kinsa ni?? Ga-drama ka?? Ayaw ug patagad nako ha!” She just ignored me but I kept on texting her and finally she replied again. We sent messages to each other until I felt better and fell asleep.

The heartache was still there. I can’t escape from it so I let it run down my life because sooner it will be over. With the help of my never-been-seen friend, slowly and gradually I have moved on.

It came to appoint that I need to be alone so I told her that I can’t communicate to her for a month. I stayed on a boarding house all by myself. My life was so boring and unproductive since then. I woke up every morning and took a bath. After that, I ate then I slept then I ate and slept again. That event almost ruined me down.

Though I did not texted “toniet” for a month, she would still sent me love quotes and encouraging me to go on with life. She would even ask me whether I ate already or whether I’m fine and gave me a missed call often. She was so sweet.

As the days go by, I started to appreciate her thoughtfulness and my feelings were developed to her. She would always call me her “angel” because she thinks I’m really an angel (laughs). We usually see each other if we have vacant times. I’m so comfortable being with her. She is so easy to be with, so funny, so talkative and so….. sweet. She is attractive as well.

I invited her to a date. We went to the seashore lines somewhere here in the province. The spot was a perfect place for a romantic approach. I held her hands and she embraced me tightly. The blue skies and the birds over the clouds was an excellent panoramic view. The calm sea and the whispering voice of the air and all the things around us were the witnesses of our enchanting love story. It was almost sunset and the sun smiled over us. We look to each other’s eyes as I said “I’ll take care of you and tears will no longer fall from your eyes” and then finally, we kissed………..