Thursday, February 11, 2010

When Love (and Infatuation) Strikes


For women, love at first sight and true love are phenomenal. For men, it usually happens every time they meet gorgeous ladies heading their way.

Living in the modern era, teenagers are often confused on when to say that love is present in a relationship. They often get fooled on believing things such as “love at first sight” and other stuffs alike. They are weak and unsure in things related to these matters.

Every person was created by God with the most precious gifts and physical attributes that made us all special. But among all of these amazing qualities is the vital part that expresses the wisdom of God’s purpose – the heart to feel love.

But this holy and sanctified gift has been contaminated with malice and wrong perceptions throughout the change of time. There is a problem with dividing love from attraction. Worst, many of us are duped into believing that an attraction is Love.

But this holy and sanctified gift has been contaminated with malice and wrong perceptions throughout the change of time. Love, that is supposed to be holy and sanctified by the Divine, and attraction, are slowly evolving into one. Meaning, when a guy is attracted to a lady, it directly indicates that he feels love and vice versa.

Factually, men are more prone in doing this evolution misconception. Now, the question is, how many time does a guy get attracted to girls? Could it lead to a disaster?

Young men, in specific, always have these “love at first sight” dramas every time they see attractive girls coincide their path. And believe or not, the image of that girl will be inculcated in their thoughts and perhaps dream about that lady for a series of time.

That “love at first sight” events will result to sleepless nights, unstable heartbeats, and paranoia to when they will see that lovely lady again. But in case if there is no other chance to see that girl once more, it is not a big deal since they still have a wave of girls to choose from.

And after a day or two, when men already have their new prospect of desire, they will eventually forget the other woman because a new attractive chick comes along.

Females on the other hand, misjudge men to these kinds of doings. Most of them have negative comments like calling men as jerks, liars and great pretenders. Whether boys like it or not, these accusations are real. They can’t escape the blazing eyes of women who were victims of their brutality.

To be fair, women should also hear men’s side.

Jason Libres, a sophomore Information Technology student, said that he believes in things such as love at first sight. “It happened to me thrice or maybe higher,” he said. He also said that he felt love for someone a couple of times already and it is natural for a man to feel love. But he said that “it depends on the situation”. He continued that “things change” and he does not want to stay in a relationship if his feelings would die away for someone. “I am honest; I just don’t want to hurt anyone,” he said. He clarified that his feelings would fade if he will see something wrong to his love interest and he doesn’t tend to play women’s hearts.

Same answer was given by a senior social science student, Jettrey Velonta. “Every time I see good looking girls coming on my way, I would surely turn my head.” He said that he appreciates attractive women simply because he is a human who knows the real meaning of the word beauty. He continued that since he was in high school, he already fell in love more or less than twenty times. He added that a guy can feel love to his opposite sex as many times as he want for as long as he is not committed.

Sought for his reaction about the matter, Jake Ronald Rodriguez, a junior BS Hospitality Management student said that it is just nature why men act that way. “A simple touch from a girl will become a big deal for us and we may think of it as a seduction motive,” he said.

He also shared that women should not hate all men since every man is different from the other. “Some are like that (bad ones) but there are few who still value the true essence of love,” he said. He cited himself an example of a man who is faithful to his girlfriend and that even once he did not cheat on her.

“Before, when I was still single, I am attracted directly to someone who is stunning and beautiful,” he added. He narrated that if he is attracted to someone at first sight he would follow that girl to wherever she goes so that he can get her attention. But he explained that when he met her girlfriend he changed and became a better person. He continued that he has changed his manner after seeing his new one now, and has completely changed his old ways.

Men are likewise humans and they are weak to temptations. We fall in love, we become infatuated, we fail, and we break up. But in the end, we will surely arrive to a destiny with the right one. And by that time, we will realize that despite falling in love many times, we will find the right person – the true one – at the right time.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

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Now, what's good about Animax-asia is that, they have a complete list of schedule of when will be the airing schedule of your favorite anime series in their Cable TV channel so that you will be aware of its daily time slots.


Site for example, if I want to know what is the airing schedule of my favorite anime Bleach, I would just simply access their website and view all the schedules listed in it..
 I always watch Japanese-based cartoon series since their style of portraying the characters in every anime series is totally COOL!. And for that, thanks to animax-asia.

Right now, I am enjoying all of the amazing features in their website. Such as, daily news and updates of my favorite cartoons series, updates of games, and special promotions sponsored by their site.

For over the past years, animax-asia has not only driven the hearts of the avid anime-seekers for great anime series and videos, but has become a big hit in the world of anime.
Me, on the other hand, is a big fun of fantastic and awesome anime series since I was a kid, and that I've been looking for the best websites on the internet that could offer me the exact updates and news to all of my entertainment needs.




I am an avid fan of Bleach, and I always watch it every time I'm home from school. Ichigo Kurosaki is simply amazing, eventhough he acts like a jerk most of the times..hahaha..But, the fight scenes are totally awesome, especially when he acquired the upgraded mode of his weapon.

But I'm looking forward to his love affair with Rukia, the soul reaper from the other dimension of the world. They look so cute together and because of their tandem, I loved to watch it.

Amazing isn't it? So, if you are an anime-addict like me and watches cartoon series alot, then it's time for you to go and access the world of animax-asia.

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Animax -asia: the finest place for the anime fanatics

For over the past years, animax-asia has not only driven the hearts of the avid anime-seekers for great anime series and videos, but has become a big hit in the world of anime.
Me, on the other hand, is a big fun of fantastic and awesome anime series since I was a kid, and that I've been looking for the best websites on the internet that could offer me the exact updates and news to all of my entertainment needs.

I always watch Japanese-based cartoon series since their style of portraying the characters in every anime series is totally COOL!. And for that, thanks to animax-asia.

Right now, I am enjoying all of the amazing features in their website. Such as, daily news and updates of my favorite cartoons series, updates of games, and special promotions sponsored by their site.

I am an avid fan of Bleach, and I always watch it every time I'm home from school. Ichigo Kurosaki is simply amazing, eventhough he acts like a jerk most of the times..hahaha..But, the fight scenes are totally awesome, especially when he acquired the upgraded mode of his weapon.

But I'm looking forward to his love affair with Rukia, the soul reaper from the other dimension of the world. They look so cute together and because of their tandem, I loved to watch it.

Now, what's good about Animax-asia is that, they have a complete list of schedule of when will be the airing schedule of your favorite anime series in their Cable TV channel so that you will be aware of its daily time slots.

Site for example, if I want to know what is the airing schedule of my favorite anime Bleach, I would just simply access their website and view all the schedules listed in it..

Amazing isn't it? So, if you are an anime-addict like me and watches cartoon series alot, then it's time for you to go and access the world of animax-asia.

For a full access on their website, you can sign in for free.

Monday, January 25, 2010

NO goals in life, NO tomorrow

This was my realization today, after all the past realizations that I've had. See? things are really getting too complicated. And me, on the other hand, is just so confident enough to what I am doing - not attending classes, passing testpapers with no answers, and most of all, sleeping while the class is going on.

Maya reminds me always of going to school, and of course, I am a good follower, so I always go to school, even on Sundays and Saturdays. But that doesn't mean that I attend my daily classes. I'm tired and I don't know why is this happening.

Maybe, The News Editor was right that I lack goals in life. I have no goals and that resulted to my non-stop no-cure laziness this semester.

What are goals? I mean, what are really my goals in life?

Are goals in life the same as ambitions in life?

I think not, they are different. I have ambitions, tons of ambitions. I want to have a huge white mansion, US Navy-like submarine, helicopter, cars, and everything that a crazy minded jerk could ever wish for. As the saying goes "LIBRE ANG MANGARAP", and this is true.

Indeed, ambitions are the reason why people strive hard and continue living their totally-messed-up lives everyday. Though how miserable and hell-like their life is, they still has the reason to go on and fight once more because of one thing - GOALS in life.

GOAL..hmmm...I really cannot explain clearly what I have understood about this word because I am still on the process of thinking about it. I'll talk about it next time.

SO, that's it.

To be able to boost up your determination is to have goals.

DO I have goals in life?

hmmmmmmm.....I couldn't figure that out either.....

Sunday, January 24, 2010

A comeback from a 2-week disapperance in the blogosphere , Love is in the air

It’s no longer obsession this time. It’s something beyond that – it’s love and this is real.

From the time I had this strong obsession about this girl, and up to the time I got close to her seems like a movie in fast-forward mode.

And now, we are enjoying each other’s company - happy and contented.
I don’t need to elaborate all the things that had happened because I don’t want this blog to look like an all-love category.

So, let me not elaborate, but rather narrate the happenings in the past days. (hahaha)

We walked in the rain for two hours, that’s 5:30-7:30 P.M., last Thursday and it was really cold. That time was filled with a lot of nonsense conversation and laughters. She still looked very stunning even though the rain was heavily pouring. I brushed her hair with my hands since her hair covered her face. In return, she wiped my wet face with her hankie because I told her to do so (hahahaha)…

The next day, she sang a song with a guitar in the rooftop of a building, and I was her only audience. She quite has a good voice, and she was really charming and amazing that I adore her more for that.

We hugged each other and………. - a dream came true.

I can’t ask for more. Well, my days won’t be the same again if she’ll go away.

I’ll be better for her………… I’ll make this “happy ever after” last longer – until I’ve got white hair and wrinkles all over my face.

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For the past weeks, I was not able to post my thrice-a-week journal since our editor cut the internet connection in each of the reporter’s personal computers – a punishment for not performing our job as student journalists.

There are lots of things that had happened the day I last posted a blog here.

MIDTERM EXAMS. Finally, the eyebrow-burning (is this word right?) exams have finally come to and end, and I’m now a little bit confident that I’ll get low scores because I didn’t study at all, and that’s COOL. Cool because I’m pretty sure that my transcript of records will be more colorful with all of those RED-tinted grades. AWESOME!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Fairytale - where are we going Maya (that's not a bird, it's a princess' name)

I'm afraid of losing you. I don't want to see this fairytale end up, not reaching the happy ending.

Tonight's January 16, 11 P.M., it's been a day since the last time we texted each other. Is it okay if I'll say "I miss Maya"? - From now on, I'll name her in my blog as "Maya". Because I really do miss her since I rarely see her these days. I'm not attending my English Classes (the only time of the day where I can see her).

What is happening to this blog. I have noticed that for the past journals I have posted here, it's all about love - my love story, not yours. But this is mine so let me do the work (hahaha).

So, let me not talk about the "L" thing this time. I'll share something more interesting. The love thing still, will be included at the later part (haha). You can't blame a man with hearts revolving around his head.

I'm glad that I was able to take a bath early in the morning these past days. THAT IS ACHIEVEMENT. Meaning, I was able to attend my morning subjects with me in a so-called fresh-good-smell. I am not sure if I really did smell good, but no one should argue because I know my scent.

I have a new look. Yes, you hear it, I undergone a barber-shop surgery a week ago and I didn't feel good about my new hair cut. It's not that bad, but it seems like I wanted more. I guess, I should not expect a lot the next time I'll cut my hair so I wouldn't be disappointed. And, I don't want Maya to see my hair because it doesn't look good, really. She might not text or befriend me anymore.

I had a one-week cellphone access. One of the Editors, Ate Nadine, super nice and kind, allowed me to use her phone for a week and that is awesome. I was able to text Maya for that span of time. And believe me, lots of things happen - bad and good. I hope nothing's change. Nothing has (the feeling) change for me, I don't know with hers.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Complicated - Is this the end of our fairytale?

What is wrong with us - me and you, or perhaps just me. Well, maybe it's always my fault why you get sad, why you get mad, and why the things between us are getting so complicated.

It might sound so weird that I often tell you that "I don't want to see you" though I have feelings for you. But, that's the opposite of what I always say. I really do wanted to see you always - but I just don't want to let you see me steadily looking at you. What a JERK!

A few days ago, last Thursday to be specific, a friend told you about something. He probably shared to you about his made-out topic (the things I've said)which he insisted that these were not rue. HELL!. I mean, I can't tell lies. It would be so ridiculous for me to do it. I don't have to tell lies about my feelings since these are DAMN true. SHIT!

How can I tell lies when all I know is reality. I am blinded with this piece of junk - Love, but it's the reason why I'm happy. I really do not know where are we going. I am not courting you, I am not that obvious (hope so..but you know it), but I NEED YOU. Living a day knowing that you're just around makes it brighter.

There are times that I HURT you, I PISS you off, I make you MAD, and I make you sad. I AM SORRY

There are times when I don't consider you're feelings and I kept minding my own.
I AM SORRY

There are times when I often apologize and say "sori" for my lapses, but still I keep on doing that all over again.
I AM SORRY

There are times when you wanted to see me and I would refuse since I thought you were just kidding. I AM SORRY

There are times when I get angry at you and hurt you. Believe me, it was just thru text and I can't do that in reality. You still don't know me well.
I AM SORRY

I AM SORRY for all the "I'M SORRY".

I guess, I am no good for you. But, I really wanted to stay around and tell you that "I love you" face-to-face someday, embrace you with my arms, and kiss you so dearly.

But, how can that be happening if both of us can't understand each other.
But if things will get fine and chances are permitted by the heaven, I will be better ateh..

I DON'T WANT THIS FAIRYTALE TO END, AND PLEASE, DON'T LET IT TO HAPPEN, AS WELL.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I am crazy - Again?

There are no songs as beautiful as the music that fills my soul when I see you.

 I seldom have this feeling - once in a blue moon as what they call it. Though I often told my friends that "I'm in love" to every gorgeous girls I see anywhere, it's not true since I don't even know the feeling of being in love - it's just a "guy thing" to admire attractive women.

Perhaps, I know that feeling - sleepless nights, can't get her off my mind, she makes me smile like a crazy jerk, I wanted to see her every day and if possible every hour, I wanted to go to my English subject because we are classmates. But I guess, the reason of why I can't remember anymore the feeling of love is that I was too busy thinking on how to earn money (and spend it as well - super spender) and the recently finished drama - depression.

Really, nobody touched my heart the way she did. It's like I have become a child again that never knew love at all. She makes my heart beat a hundred times when she looks at me.

I am crazy and I am obsess with you...
They say you are like this and like that, but still I don't want to believe to what other people say.
Because I know that you are kind, and sweet.

And if they are right, then people change. I am blinded with this feeling and I like it. I trust you in so many ways. Let my blindness begin.

".gudnayt..yaw pagpulaw au..yaw pud pgpakapui au imu work..Mastress niya ka..hehe..switdrimz..mwaahh"

"g.kulam d.i tika kuya..haha..uhmm...maanad raka..hehe..eat nya mdnyt snaks..haha..bleh! una raq kuya ug slep..gudnay gudnayt..dreams of me.. :-) ..ur so close but still so far"

Every time we exchange thoughts thru texting, I did not hesitate to think twice or had second thoughts if the messages you sent me were real or not. I don't care a bit. All I know is that I'm happy and it's because of you.

Honestly, you have become sweeter to me than the past days, and I'm trapped in your maze.
I can't find any other way but to say that - I am drowning into the ocean of love (YAYKSSSS...HAHAHA)

I am afraid that I'll wake up one morning and all the happy things that had happened is over.
To open my eyes one morning and you are gone, and realized that it was just a DREAM.


PLEASE...I HOPE IT'S NOT....

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The Product of my INSANITY>>>A Tagalog Novel

These past few days, my mind isn't steady. Really, there's something wrong with it - not me. I talk to myself very often when no one's around, and  I have tons of thoughts about my DAMN life!. I admit that I am depressed than ever before - that I can't handle it anymore. I wanted to just let it all out but I don't want to tell anybody. I mean, ME MYSELF IS A BIG MESS! and I don't want anyone to be a part of this junk.

When people makes fun of me, I laugh - half meant - since this damn feeling is killing me. This feeling about all the academic failures (though I am still doing fine but I want to fail all my major subjects because I DON'T LIKE IT ANYMORE and my digestive system can't take it anymore. I don't want to listen anymore about all the MATH stuff), and next, is the fact that I am a FASTMAN - one day millionaire.

That's not all. This is my blog so let me say that..uhmmm... I'm tired with my life..really.
If my mother will find out that I'll going to extend another year contract here in NORSU and shift to another course, she will be sad, really sad. She only have 2 years remaining in a planet until the contract is off. It means that I can't pursue my studies anymore unless I work for myself and send my sister in College as well.

I CAN'T IMAGINE MYSELF FACING ALL THESE CHALLENGES WITH MY YOUNG HANDS!

 I mean, I am still 18 years old and I should not be thinking about all these things but I can't escape the fact that...uhmmmm
1. 2 years from now, I'll going to send my sister in college
2. after 2 years, my mother don't have a work so I need to support her
3  I need to support all the two of them
4. I need to finish my studies
5. My mother is old so I need to take care of her

And now, I'm still merely EIGHTEEN YEARS OF AGE. GOD. I'M SO YOUNG and I keep on thinking about this EVERY NIGHT.. I'm losing weight now, maybe it's the result of the overthinking nights. I'm weird because I act so happy at school yet so silent at my room that even my boardmates are afraid of my weirdness.

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME and you can't blame me since i don't know what to do..really.. I don't...

I've been alone for almost 6 years already without no one who watches over me but I am here still acting tough and brave though I don't know how to fight anymore.

I'M SORRY FOR BEING WEIRD. I'M SORRY IF I HURT THE FEELINGS OF EVERYONE. I"M SORRY FOR BEING NOISY AND CRAZY SINCE THIS IS MY ONLY WAY TO ESCAPE LONELINESS AND DEPRESSION AND SHIT!..I'M SORRY IF I'M K.S.P or O.A. or whatever..
I JUST DON'T WANT TO STAY IN MY ROOM BECAUSE I DID NOTHING THERE BUT TO THINK - IT MAKES ME INSANE

LET ME TELL YOU THIS..YOU ARE MY FAMILY AND I DON'T CARE IF I DON'T BELONG OR I DON'T EXIST IN YOUR MINDS.

THE THING IS, YOU ARE MY TEMPORARY FAMILY, TN.

I PLAYED THIS GAME BECAUSE OF THREE THINGS:
FAMILY
WRITING
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Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hello! 2010, BB '09!

Year 2009, the best year for me, yet also the saddest. A book of my life's new history-a climax of laughs and second chances, that ended with a bunch of sadness, disappointments, and failures.

Time to go forward despite the bad things that came across my way - the bad ones, totally bad. Perhaps, those bad things in life are the ones that what make us human, not the good ones since good memories do not add anything in life.

And this is the truth, happy memories will last forever and will be inculcated in our innocent minds but it won't be an aid to let us realize the wrong doings we have made. But the bad memories will, and it will always be the reason why people grow, why people learn, and why people mature. It will build and help you to become a much better person in the future.

As long as you will not learn from your mistakes, as long as you will not realize the truth about life, as long as you can't take yourself off to human crimes and improper behaviors- either you did it intentionally or unintentionally, you won't grow and you are not human other than a no-soul creature artificially covered with human flesh, fake and not real. You are not human unless you realize what is your purpose as a human.

But that's not the topic I want to tackle here so let's cut the CRAP off! haha. I'm not the serious type either, and believe me, I don't want to share anything about holiness to you guys!. Aren't you sick listening to the priest's sermon in all those 9 sleepy mornings that you could just have lie down in bed and sleep?

So I would like to check-out what had happened way back 2009, last December rather...