'Time Flies Fast'

My last blog entry was on first week October. Time, as what all people say, flies so fast. You never see it coming. You never see all the opportunities coming unless you take risks, unless you try, unless you have the will to grab the undiscovered good things coming your way.

I for one did not know what I was doing with my life. But HE did it all for me. He puts me in the right places, at the right time, with the right people. And for the nth time in my entire life. I asked myself...

What have I done good to deserve such blessings? His kindness?

I was never good nor did anything good to please him. I never did something worth praising or did something adorable to his eyes. I was a plain old junkie who spent most of my college years in things that I thought were 'okay'.

But He always look at the best of us. Despite the best of me is hard to find, he stayed, and dwelt within me. So now, with the subtle change brought upon by time, I'll try to be good.

The King's Speech

"I'm a good officer. But I'm not a King! I'm not a King!"

He is the Duke of York, the son of King George V, King and Royal Highness of Great Britain. His name is too long I can no longer recall. But the word in between his very long name is Albert. And his Speech Doctor calls him Berty but he doesn't like that. He is a Duke and Prince after all. And by the way, he stammers, a lot.

Since he is a Duke and the son of a King, he has to attend numerous gatherings and events that greatly require his verbal charisma - an ability, that's sadly, he is not blessed with.

This is a movie. And this one is inspired by the real-life drama of King George VI during the 1930's upon the declaration of war by Germany against its non-ally countries. During those hard times, the speech-defective King tried his best to lift-up the spirits of his people. He gave them hope through delivering speeches on nationwide broadcast.

He can hardly speak, can hardly utter a single word from his mouth. And during his younger years, people made fun of him. His brother teases him. His nanny pinches him a lot because she doesn't like him. And until he grew old, around his 40's perhaps, have gone married and begotten a couple of children, his inability to speak caused topsy-turvy to his prominence.

But he tried anyway, he tried to get the best experts in Great Britain and sought the possibility of being cured. All of them failed, except one. They did tongue exercises and other ridiculous stuff that sounded funny to me. He succeeded and became King, a remarkable one. As a matter of fact, he is one of the most recognized Kings in monarch history.

I love the story because I can relate to his circumstance. I stammer a lot when I was a kid, and I think it occurred psychologically, something happened in my childhood years that led me to acquire such defect. I struggled at first, yes. But I tried my best to overcome that weakness by formulating techniques while talking.

Now, I still stammer though, sometimes. But I'm not that obvious anymore. But watching the movie made me realize that I can still develop my speaking. I will look for exercises that will help improve the way I speak. And I'm very excited about it. Yey! :)

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

(This poem was referred to me by my instructor after I told her about the things I do every time I am bored or temporarily insane. She said that life is too short. That sometimes we need to do crazy and random things to appreciate life.)

Board Exam!

Pinikit ko ang aking mga mata.

Pagka't pagod na sa kakabasa.

Nahirapan sa Chrystallography.

Napaisip ng kunti kay Stratigraphy.

Nakaligtaan si Geomorphology.

Babalikan mamaya si Paleontology.

Ako ay kinakabahan para sa Agosto.

May pang-huling exam sa pagkokolehiyo.

Isang pagsubok na dapat ay lampasan.

Isang mithiin na dapat ay makamtan.

Panginoon! Ako ay lumuluhod, nagsusumamo.

Mga pangarap ko't hiling ay dinggin mo.

Katalinuhan at lakas ng loob aking hanap.

Sa pag-uwi ay maging GEOLOGIST na ganap.

HE Works Mysteriously

The world is crazy. Things have gone crazy. And along the insanity of the world and its unpredictable shortcomings, I remained super for I was built to be super, to withstand trials and face problems one on one.

Really, Ryan? Is that why you have become a sissy? And had almost let go of your dreams and faith and courage and all the things that you want to prove to yourself and to everybody?

Yes, almost, almost, almost. But HE works in wonderful ways. HE listens to me even though I am crazy. HE answers my prayers even though I am crazy. HE has been always good to me despite being crazy. HE is a wonderful and kind creator.

During this circumstance, I have learned a few lessons. HE will help you boost your confidence and make you feel proud and super. But when you have crossed the line, and the blessings have gone over your head, he will take some of it.

Then you will remember your mistakes and because of those mistakes you are being tested. I am now reminded of where I stand.

I am crossing my fingers, hoping my documents will be fixed. I have received a good news early this afternoon. Thank you, Lord. :) For I shall become what YOU want me to be. Your will be done. 

Tonight I miss you...

Tonight it rains in the metro,

Wheels taxi the crossroads,

Lights shatter the rain pour.

Winds gush from the window

And romantic music plays soft,

And heavens masked the stars,

And the skies were lonely,

And the roses gone cold.

Darling, tonight I miss you.

And these letters are of missing,

And this prose is all for you.

Soon, I'd go home and tell you,

"Darling, tonight I miss you."

Call Me...

I am waiting for your call

For if you call, I'd know

For if you call, I'd rest

Then I'd stop wondering

I am waiting for you call

For if you call, I'd smile

For if you call, I'd jump

Then my longing ends

I am waiting for you call

For if you won't, if you won't

Someone else will. 

Jitters! Board Exam! Lord Help!

I thank God for giving me always this optimistic aura ever  since I was born. This aura has led me to several victories and next-after-next success in life. For passing each year level in elementary, high school, and in college, is a success. Education is a prize; and it is something that will forever remain when everything you have is lost.

The PRC Licensure Exam for Geologists is nearing. It is so near that you can already feel the grainy texture of the test paper, and feel the crooked smiles of the examiners if someone fails it. Unlike other licensure exams, geology licensing is held only once a year. That means if someone fails the exam, he shall wait for another year to try it once more.

And I am on the downside, my batchmates have already started their review for the 3-day licensure examination last summer. They have been scanning, reading, etc. ever since after graduation. I, on the other hand, enrolled myself to summer class to graduate and was not able to review because my classes start 8AM and ends 3PM, integral calculus (calculus 2) and differential equations (calculus 3). These subjects, for emphasis, are total headaches. My brain cells were all consumed everyday just of these two, nothing left to review for geology.

My reviewmates have already noticed that my knowledge in geology is not topnotch compared to theirs, and that I am quite forgetful to some of the information I have learned way back in college. But I told them that I will catch up and try the hardest to fit all geology information inside my brain for the next two months remaining, since the PRC Geology board Exam will be on August 13, 14, and 15, 2013.

I also made a joke that I will either top or merely pass the board exam to make them feel better and worry less about the present situation of my brain. But I don't intend to boast or something like that, because deep in my heart I know that I can topnotch, all I need is to focus all my energy for that exam, and I have been praying, and claiming my victory from God. For God's will is always good, he doesn't want us to fail, or feel bad, or hurt. For he knows all my plans in life...all of it...my plans are all good...all for my family... 

I will pass the board exam. I will pass it. I am claiming my victory from you God.

Thank you Lord! 

INSERT --> Oh by the way, while falling in line to register/enroll myself to UP Dilliman's CWM Zena'na Geology Board Review, I saw this pretty chick at the registration table. There are many beautiful women in UP, it is the haven of beautiful women, but I prefer her among any other else. She is a three-letter-named chick. I hope she doesn't show up again. I am easily distracted.

Road Trip...

If I didn't guard myself well, she would have caught me "love at first sight" for the second time around. I'm glad that my priorities are not women this time, just this time.

If my memory doesn't fail me, we met four or three years ago. The moment we met, I fell in love. Who wouldn't? [But I know that me saying this is so redundant. She is not the first woman that I happen to write about in this blog, but still, as of this moment, I'm thinking of the possibilities]. It happened so fast. And our relationship ended so fast, too. It was a hell of a roller coaster ride. In a minute, you are on the verge of extreme euphoria, then the next sixty seconds, you end up emo-emo somewhere.

I was the shy and good boy when we met three/four years back. Take note, shy type and good boy. That means I really don't have the guts to talk to the girls I like. But still, I can relay to them the idea that I like them by just looking at them. I have romantic eyes. Lol. Haha.

How is that possible that I possess such inner good features? Nah, I'm kind you know but I get angry, too. And when I get angry, I really am angry. Ahemm... So that when we met again last week I had to make sure that she and my old friends don't freak out to what I have become. I am no good boy now. :P

I said hi to them since she was with a friend of mine in elementary. I didn't let 10 seconds to pass and told her "Naa ko diri kay makig-date ko nimu." I gave her a smile, too. I know that things like that don't work but really, it's all that I can say. I expected rejection for what I did but still I managed to smile for such a stupid attempt. She just smiled and started to give signs to my other friend. Oh, I know what this is. This is rejection. Ryan gets rejected. NO!!!

But still I stood there, waiting patiently. When it was her turn to stand up, I held my breath for she became a fine young woman. She was attractive... [I need to prohibit myself from writing adjectives because I don't want malice and sensuality to overrule this paragraph] All I can say is that, she is attractive. And any men, any, even gays and dwarfs, would turn their heads to give a good look at her.

I realized that I had to go home, everything went wrong, epic fail. But when I started to walk backwards, getting ready to say goodbye, she walked towards me and asked, "Asa ta mangadto?"

Summers, Summers

I really didn't have much time to enjoy my summers for the last two years.

In 2011, I need to enroll myself to summer class since I need to catch up with my academics. You see, I'm not really good at school. I'm not the A student. But I can compete with the A student if I wanted to. It is my personal preference to stay out of regular classes and refuse to study when major exams are nearing. I like it that way.

In 2012, I went to Baguio City. Baguio seems so good for summer ey? But I'm just kidding, I didn't stay there for good all summer. Lel. :P . I had my On-the-Job-Training in Mankayan, Benguet, a famous mining area located  a few municipalities next to Baguio. That is 6-8 hours of travel from the capital Baguio City. Nevertheless, I had fun in Baguio since I go there during weekends; Streets are hilly; Houses are situated on cliffs; Women are fashionistas; And the temperature is cool.

This summer is no fun, too. My summer classes concluded last Friday, that means I am now an official graduate of 2013. Hey! I need to visit the registrar first to confirm the validity of my claiming a graduate. I hope that everything will be okay. I hope that everything will go as smooth and creamy as a Goldilocks's cake I enjoyed eating yesterday. Thank you Lord :)